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Am I too happy???
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Am I too happy??? Ok.... So anyone who has been paying attention knows that I'm head over heels in love with sorceror07, right? But in the past life has kept biting me in the ass and I've LET it get me down, right? For a while there I seemed ruled by depression, right? It almost seemed as if I preferred to be in that state of mind, right? But, believe it or not I DID try to fight it, and I did win against the depression more often than not.  Here's the thing... I'm still battling demons from long ago, I'm still struggling with the end of my marriage, I'm still beating myself up over mistakes I've made in the past, I'm beating myself up over mistakes I'm making now, and... I'm still struggling with esteem issues... I've discovered one thing... I never lost my strength. It's always been there... just deeply hidden. I was trapped in a vicious cycle of hormone fluctuations after being prescribed the wrong oral contraceptives. There were days I couldn't even stand the sound of my own voice! hehehe! I had my prescription changed and HELLO!! WHAT A DIFFERENCE! Things are still fluctuating...it takes time for the body to regulate. But I can feel a major difference inside of me. I looked in the mirror last night and the first thing I thought was how great my breasts looked for my age. I looked at my curves and thought how incredibly good I looked. Then I realized that a mere month ago I would have cried after looking at myself in the mirror. That is so sad...I spent so much time down on myself. Wasted time. I'm soooo lucky for soooo many reasons  Thank you everyone, for all the kind words you've said, the compliments, the hugs when I needed them. I don't know if I've ever said it but THANKS!!! I love you guys!  I love you guys long time!   |
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8/8/2007 7:27 am |
well this is my first time here, and i think you look great and you seem to be around people who love you so good luck, and i'll enjoy stopping by now and then.
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hehehe! Are you willing to have one with me Saint cuz it aint gonna happen any other way!  I already have one perfect little metalhead, three more and I'll have a band!
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Nope my Doc, I'm not afraid to admit that I can not handle my beer anymore!  Now, about your wardrobe....
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VERY glad to hear you are in the right frame of mind to enjoy life now.....no more wasting time! Have a blast and enjoy to the fullest!
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VERY glad to hear you are in the right frame of mind to enjoy life now.....no more wasting time! Have a blast and enjoy to the fullest! Pull My Fucking Hair! 
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 Embracing the Metal Goddess!!!  
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after working last night and open-to-close today, i cant make my fingers make the words my mind is telling them to. ill try again tomorrow night. but for now, this will have to do: for all the work youve put into moving forward from all the challenges in your past, revel in all youve been able to accomplish, and enjoy every moment you can. ttys.
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Sweetheart ~ Loving yourself is more than half of the battle. Glad to see you're learning to fully enjoy the journey (because, ultimately, that's much more fun than the destination). *much love* / I'm still learning and have quite a way to go before I reach the stars... but I WILL get there one fine day I'll also get to Virginia too!
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oh... btw... that was my 5000th comment i've made on a blog!  Congrats! (My number for this post is 169....maybe it's a sign! )
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and i've stood behind you (and beside you too!) every step ...and i always will You have put up with alot from me.... although it sounds WAY better than what you've put up with in the past I'm sure it was still very stressful for you. Thank you SO much for your constant support and understanding. There is nobody in the Universe that I'd rather share this journey with!!! I love you
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Embracing the Metal Goddess!!! "You can't fix stupid...."
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after working last night and open-to-close today, i cant make my fingers make the words my mind is telling them to. ill try again tomorrow night. but for now, this will have to do: for all the work youve put into moving forward from all the challenges in your past, revel in all youve been able to accomplish, and enjoy every moment you can. ttys. "well only get through this if we work together. if we dont, none of us will"
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Sweetheart ~ Loving yourself is more than half of the battle. Glad to see you're learning to fully enjoy the journey (because, ultimately, that's much more fun than the destination). *much love* / This is my blog - [blog _Safira]. There are many like it, but this one is mine. RECOMMENDED READING: A F F The Only Site For Me
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8/4/2007 8:15 pm |
oh... btw... that was my 5000th comment i've made on a blog! ...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!... 
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8/4/2007 8:12 pm |
and i've stood behind you (and beside you too!) every step ...and i always will ...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...
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